Showing posts with label Depression. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Depression. Show all posts

Friday, December 23, 2011

Oh F*ck Me - PREMATURE AGING!

I am getting grey hair.... NO correction, they are white! I pluck them daily, but that just seems to piss them off and they grow back faster. Plus they are multiplying at an incredible rate.

I know people joke about raising kids giving you grey hair. 
But SERIOUSLY?!

I'm raising my sister and baby, so they are TWICE as irritating as normal children.

What is next? Menopause?! Been having horrible cramps this month... that's probably how it starts.

Fuck it - I don't care if my uterus falls out. I just wanna look young again!

Wrinkles, I've noticed wrinkles too! Oh. My. God. If my teen sister has a kid, I will look like it's grandma! That slut better be using condoms!


Love you ladies... stay youthful, kay?

xoxo,
zen

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Found My Balls

I've been such a mess girls. It is not at all in my nature to fall apart like this. I am the kind of girl who got mugged, then joked about it later with the cops. 

As most of you know I am the guardian of my sisters. Last week, the loser-father of my baby sister decided to have a visit.  She see's him about once a month. She doesn't like him much though. Uh, probably cause of the seething-bloody-crusty-oozing-noxious-fumes he exudes. Yum.

When he brought her back. He simply say's "I'm gonna keep her for awhile". What? As I reached for her door handle, he got back in and locked the car doors. She began frantically trying to get out and started crying. 

I knocked on the window and told him to open the fucking door. Did I mention his girlfriend was in the passenger seat... NOT looking at me. Hmm. Perhaps it was because she knew I wanted to do this...



















I yelled for him to get the fuck out and talk to me. What the hell?! The tot was hysterical by now. OMG! I was not about to let them leave, so I blocked the fucking car and began yelling for someone to call the police.

He got out and was speaking calmly. Oh I hate people who do that. Who fight with you calmly. Mock you calmly. Say venomous things calmly. He said she was perfectly fine. And that I was making things worse by overreacting. OVER reacting would have been picking up a brick, breaking the damn window... or his head for that matter.

His girlfriend was still in there, staring straight ahead. I slammed my hand against the window and said a word I have never said before. A word I loathe. It came out fluidly. "Open the door you CUNT!"

Finally, after an hour and 45 minutes the police had shown up. I don't know what to expect from him next, but I am not going to let that fucktard bully us again.

I am ashamed of myself for being such pussy this past week. But I am done with my pity-party. I am going to finally take a fucking shower, contact an attorney, and kick that mother fucker in his Angry Inch. Lucille LeSeur, dig the movie ref? 

Takes a pretty small pecker to kidnap a 5 year old. A real man would try working out custody issues in an entirely different manner.

xoxo,
zen

Thank you lovely PD for letting my cry on your cyber shoulder last night (in your time zone). I love you soooooo much!!! Yes, in the kinkiest manner possible. Unfortunately I live far far away and cannot run over there and hug the hell outta you.

Monday, May 10, 2010

M.I.A. for a bit

Some shitty things have happened recently and I am feeling overwhelmed. I haven't posted for a bit because I'm working on getting things/emotions back under control right now. I'll give you the scoop about the fucktard responsible once the dust has settled. In the meantime I'm still maintaining my thinspo page. Looking at pretty tits can be such a nice distraction.












Love love love you guys.
xoxo,
zen