You're not cool unless you pee your pants

Have completed week one of the liquid fast and the results are lovely. Am down 8lbs! Yesh! 
Omg how I love fasting. You know your fasting good when...

- you pee constantly
- you get the urge to pee and feel thirsty at the same time
- you actually have to run to the bathroom to pee after drinking water
- you cannot go through the entire night without waking to pee
- you pee out your bum!

Yeah, even the water-poo makes me happy. 
It makes me smile cause I know there's only water in meh!

Oh and yeah, I did drink the beer btw. How the fuck else was I supposed to get rid of it? 
Going for week two now!

xoxo ♥
zen

Sexy Beer

I am on day two of my water fast. My stomach is a rock. I love the "not hungry" feeling you get after the first 24hours. I am thirsty All-The-Time. Which is great. So I am gulping down tons of healthy water, flushing out my system, and keeping my tummy full.
Except...

There is beer in the fridge.
Food cannot tempt me, but fucking beer... ugh. It wants me bad. It looks at me so cute whenever I open the fridge to get a cold glass of water. OOH I have an idea, keep my glass on the counter, not in the fridge. No more beer flirting at me. Perfect!
Carry on ladies ♥

xoxo,
zen

Fuck Love.

My latest relationship just ended. 
5 months and 6 days after the day it began.

I was sure I'd NEVER hear from him again.

So we ended up talking for 2 hours, some of it spent in awkward silence. I still had no idea of the status of our relationship. 
It was really weird. 
So to test the waters and see if he still cared about me, I asked if we could still be friends.
He said "Yes, of course".

That was my answer. Friends.

Today he called me again on Skype to chat like normal, like nothing was different. He said he still wants to hear my voice, talk daily like always. 
But. We are just friends.
Ouch.

I am NEVER caring about someone again. I always new it was an insane concept for me. I suck at it.

Not crying, just feel empty.

xoxo
zen