Tummy Ache

Oh-Fuck-Me I felt hungry today. My usual binge reaction is to shovel in as much food as possible before I feel full. And I kinda did that just now. I made myself a bowl of pasta, started shoving it in, then luckily caught myself. But.... it was too late. I should have stopped about 10 spoonfuls prior. I have a brick sitting in my gut now.

You know how they tell you to eat slowly cause it supposedly takes awhile for your stomach to let your brain know it is full. Yeah, well imagine (theoretically) you have a stomach the size of a walnut, and it is retarded. I hope I shit this brick out some time soon.

On a lighter note. After yesterdays pizza, my friend told me I would probably not see any loss on the scale. Well, she came over this morning and asked, with a sympathetic look, how my weigh-in was. I lost another TWO pounds! I told her proudly. She was very surprised, and did not look too happy. Oh, well. She'll get over it. I'll certainly be more fun to hang out with when I am not the "fat friend" anymore.

Damn girls, that fat friend always holds the group back. She never has a boyfriend, is kinda depressing, or overly joyous (goofy), tries too hard to get attention, always thinks the other girls are talking behind her fat back, you have to drive her home instead of going home with that hot guy cause she never gets picked up at clubs. Need I say more?

Hmmm, and I cannot fucking wait to fit into some of those thinspo dresses you guys post. But, damn I wish I could afford those. I will just find some cute knock-offs and dance my tight little ass off. Ooh and some shiny little shoes. And of course I will have my own obligatory fat friend. It is only fair. 


xoxo zen